Hi, it has been a while! Please excuse me for having been away for so long. I’ve been in the midst of an on-going chaotic transition in my life (Maybe you know what I’m talking about, from your own life). I regret that I have not been able to respond to every email, and will not be able to. I do, however, read and appreciate every email and every sharing.
My recent growth period
Around mid-July, I had an unusual bout of intestinal distress which forced me to semi-fast for a week. It came after over a month of navigating many unknowns, a move, dealing with many inter-personal challenges, body aches, and physical and emotional exertion. At the end of this semi-fasting week, I felt an inspiration (a push) to write here again.
If I had thought the challenging physical and life symptoms would rapidly fall away after 2012 (which I used to think marked the pinnacle of the incoming transformative energy), I was sorely mistaken! The incoming cosmic energies are relentless now and stronger than ever before. After this past grueling month, I was ready to throw in the towel (although not sure what “throwing in the towel” would entail). I know that these days, I am living day to day with no attachments and no expectations, losing track of the day and time. It’s the bills, the appointments, the ringing phone, and the leaky sink that have me briefly touching down into this 3D reality, moment by moment as needed. Nowadays, even when I try to meditate, I immediately sink into deep sleep. In-between, in my waking hours, I’m floating in that land of no attachments.
We’ve always been advised by the multidimensional sources to “surrender to the process,” and let me tell you, it’s very easy to surrender when you’re knocked out. :)
According to all channeled and intuited sources I’m reading now, we’re in a “veritable flood of light” that is only going to increase till every minute crevice of darkness is lit and every human soul on this Earth has been stirred. As the Constant Companions of Aisha North said in the June 15 post:
“You see, the rapid shifts and the heightened level of energetic activity is not to quieten down for quite some time yet, so for those of you who hanker for a quiet port after a prolonged exposure to these agitated seas, we can offer little but our sympathy at the moment, but for all those already sensing the huge energetic change taking place at this very moment, we can offer more of the same, at an ever increasing frequency in the days ahead.”
“In other words, this flood of light and life will enliven even the darkest of corners and it will do so in a fashion that has not been seen before, and we do mean that in a very literal sense. For now, it will be as if the very ground beneath your feet will start to shimmy and shift about, and even the very bedrock of your life will at times seem to be nothing more than a thin gossamer layer undulating in the breeze, ready to rip apart and leave you all ready to step away from the old remnants of your former life and embrace something very new.”
Looking back, I know I just went through another major period of clearing and growth. The many “opportunities for growth” that were showing up in my life, the sudden floating up in my mind of old and forgotten memories of past traumas (even trivial ones), and the intestinal distress give me the clues. I used to try to consciously address old traumas that float up, but these days, I don’t even care to find their source; I just allow them to leave without even saying hello (I’m just too darned tired). It wasn’t just my personal issues, however. There were couple of days during which I felt a deep unexplainable anxiety or grief. I’ve been long enough on this journey to recognize that the emotions on those days weren’t mine, but perhaps the collective’s.
I believe it was Matt Kahn who really impressed upon me that the light digs deeper and deeper to help you remove each layer, so that you will be ready for even more light, for an even higher frequency of light. (I was recently introduced to Matt Kahn through the Golden Age of Gaia site, and really enjoyed watching his videos.) But seriously, how many layers does this onion have?
During this period of growth, I looked deeply into my body to see how I could relieve the physical distress and how I could assist my body. I know that many of you are quite familiar with the aches and pains that I’m talking about, and have the same question. I don’t know if anyone has found the magic solution (Please share with us if you found something that worked for you!), and suspect that what gives the biggest relief is different for each person. For me, I know that my body has been telling me for a long time to exercise and to be out in nature more regularly– a herculean task for me when I’m so tired. I’m holding on too much to the incoming energies and getting a bit fried, and exercise and being in nature will help move the energies out to where they need to be. I know that I have to make that hero’s last move seen in the movies, when the left-for-dead hero rises out of the pile of debris with a roar using the very last nano-drop of his will. Wish me luck on my exercise plan. :)
In the past couple of days or so (July 25, 26 onward), my head is beginning to clear and my physical strength is returning. I don’t know if it’s because (1) I’ve been exercising and out in nature for the past few days, (2) I just received a Children of the Sun transmission, or (3) we just passed through the Lion’s Gate. One thing is for sure: Over this growth period, even through all the challenges, my commitment to my purpose in life has definitely and noticeably strengthened. I have to confess that I’m still “in the closet” about this purpose-in-life work that I’m doing (What do I call it? Lightwork? Helping to create in the depths of my heart a world that works for everyone? How do I explain it to my neighbors?). I’ve been doing this work “on the sly.” I must be the only blogger who tries to hide her work from people– LOL! Actually, of course I’m not. I know there are many of you who are in the same situation that I am.
I don’t want to work like that anymore because it limits me and my life’s purpose. I would like to fully and openly live my life’s purpose. I intend to fully and openly live my life’s purpose. I see now that I’ve been working hard over this last growth period to “clear the table”– clear myself and my life of thoughts, emotions, obligations, and situations, so that I can live this way. I ask myself whether, at this point, this “hiding in the closet” is really from habit, and not from fear.
As usual, the channeled and intuited messages that flow to me are synchronously and delightfully in tune with my life. The use of Core Power in Archangel Michael’s most recent message through through Celia Fenn (Turning Inwards to Core Power: A Planet and Population in Transition| Archangel Michael through Celia Fenn: New Year July/August 2014) spoke to my heart. I totally resonated with the definition of spiritual warrior that was brought up in Suzanne Lie’s most recent post, a conversation with the Antarians and Arcturians: “…as a Spiritual Warrior you fight for the fulfillment of your personal Mission/ Reason for Incarnation with the “Sword of Truth” and the Shield of your Three Fold Flame.” Matt Kahn’s presentation, “A Galactic Message,” which I watched just a few days ago, put out a call to live by the code of intention. These messages validate for me the masculine aspect of me who is stepping forward now, who knows that now is the time to act and to shape the energy with will, direction, and discipline.
in the world
I do see the world changing. In the sphere of people I know, so many are coming to major crossroads in their lives. Huge life-changing decisions are being made, and I’m awed to tears by the courage I’m witnessing and excited by all the new possibilities that will open in people’s lives. I see that it’s partly the courage of the people in my life to embrace the new and unknown that is giving me the courage to live more openly.
In our society, too, I see a big marker of our transition. One thing that has always stood out in my mind from one of Matias Stefano’s presentations is his assertion that the economy must first change before all the other aspects of our society– like family, education, politics, etc.– can change. It makes complete sense. We cannot move forward as a species until the basic needs of everyone on this earth (food, water, shelter, and healthcare) have been met, and we have transcended the survival mode of being. Because the exchange of goods and services is currently based on the monetary system, it is critically important for us to reform the economic system to transcend the survival mode. I’ve been hearing that huge, game-changing activities are going on in global finances right now, under the mainstream radar, but the recent public report of the formation of the New Development Bank by the BRICS nations really struck me (more info here and here). For some reason, this news stood out for me like a Stonehenge boulder, a monumental sign in our current reality that things are really changing.
How are you?
How are you doing? How have things been going since 2012? After 2012, did you at times, like me, wonder what is the point and what is the purpose now? What is getting you out of bed to meet the new day these days? Are you going through transitions, major growths? Have you found your place or are you in trying to keep still and sane in the tornado? Are you living with many moments of euphoria and manifested creations; are you in the new reality already? I’m so curious about you.